“Baby, you don’t have to point out to people you’ve gained weight and are desperately trying to lose it every time you meet with them…“
This was a loving comment from my husband tonight as we were wrapping up devotions. The genuine concern on his face reached a special place inside me that needed to be stirred. Losing weight is hard – there’s no other way around it. Breaking free from food addiction is hard – there’s definitely no other way around that! What becomes easy is getting caught up in the numbers – how many pounds am I down, how many inches have I shrunk, how many calories did I eat…I’ve become consumed with digits on a scale and have lost sight of what’s important.
Immediately after hearing this from my husband, I opened my personal devotional book and read (written from the perspective of Christ):
“In My presence you have infinite approval. You often judge yourself on the basis of what you see in the mirror, even though you know how fickle and shallow that ever-changing image is. You tend to be equally enslaved to viewing yourself through the eyes of other people, rigorously evaluating your personal performance and almost always feeling displeased with something you’ve said or done.
‘Enslaved’ is an appropriate word. You are indeed a slave when you try to measure yourself through any perspective but Mine. Evaluating your worth based on how you look, to yourself or to others, is always a trap…It [your soul] is invisible to everyone but Me, the One who plans to spend eternity with you. Though invisible, a well nurtured soul can actually improve your appearance.
…When you look in a mirror, try to see yourself as you truly are – arrayed in perfect righteousness, adorned in glowing approval.”
Isn’t God amazing! Who says He doesn’t speak directly to us when we are struggling?!
This passage addresses so much more than just weight loss. It speaks to the insecurity I have with myself as a whole. I can spend hours in a gym or at the office to achieve a false sense of success – but what have I gained if I still see something awful when I look in the mirror? Only Christ can shift my warped self-image. Only His infinite approval can shift the way I way I look at me. So here’s to a new desire – to seeing myself as God sees me. After all, He is the One I will be spending eternity with.